Life Creates Procrastination

Posted on April 26, 2012 by

I haven’t been here for quite some time. I wish I had a fabulous reason such as drastic and fabulous life changes but…here are the facts:

*I felt that I needed to focus more on developing my memior – in progress

*Develop my Yoga Teacher business – nothing has happened, but me realizing I wasn’t “ready” but feel I am now! This is because I took some time off of teaching everything. I took some time instead teaching myself what I wanted to learn.

*I wanted to become certified in Reiki and develop my healing abilities – done. I went to The Big Island of Hawaii for awhile and learned from an incredible teacher, Katalin Koda, http://katalinkoda.com/. I’d recommend her as a teacher 100%.

*Also, I wanted to visit me friend, Molly in Hawaii as well as my ex – done. It was amazing to see Molly and confusing to see the ex (big surprise there).

*I wanted to create more monetary flow- in progress. I picked up a temporary marketing position at the spa I work at. Awesome! I’m still wanting to create more flow, but that will come in time…

*I was still nervous about writing my blog seeing no one seems to read it – nervous no more, but still  hope someone out there does read it.

So…the truth is…that I was busy doing everything but working on my blog. A form of procrastination most definitely.

 

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Occupy Truth

Posted on November 24, 2011 by

I would really like to believe that the Occupy movement will have a long term impact. It started off so powerful! I am part of the 99% and would really like for there to be a change in the financial structures and institutions. However, part of me is thinking that unless we as a people, globally, keep it going, the movement will dissapate. 

As I write this now, at least in San Francisco, there are businesses that are discussing sueing the city for allowing the protesters to stay where they are. Is this right? Businesses have rights, just as the protesters have rights. It will be interesting to observe in the long run which group gains the power…

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Standing in My Way

Posted on November 14, 2011 by

I heard a quote today from Samantha Bennet of The Organized Artist Company that said, “There’s no right way, there’s only your way”. I really liked that quote because of where I am in my career, in my writing process, in my romantic relationship, and just where I Am.

I feel that I still compare myself to others, which I know is normal, but sometimes I just need little reminders that where I am is exactly where I need to be.

 

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Right Now

Posted on November 11, 2011 by

The truth about where I am right now is I’m in limbo. I understand there’s different kinds of limbo but mine is about career. I’m trying to embrace the yoga teacher in me, but she seems to still want a break. I want to be okay with that but I’ve barely even taught yoga…maybe my inner teacher is still on sabbatical. Either way, I feel I need to be doing more and I’m in the process of negotiations with my spa job about incorporating private sessions there, but I still feel the need for more yoga teacher growth.
My other issue with yoga teaching is that my practice is very limited right now. My personal motivation to practice on my own is barely there. By that I mean I’m doing plenty of spiritual reading which is part of the practice of yoga but my asana practice is probably 10 minutes a day, sometimes more sometimes less. I’ve also fallen behind on daily meditations outside of my actual reading on daily meditations.
I want to improve this next week and I will improve! What kind of Truth Yogini am I if I’m not incorporating all elements of the Yoga practice. Some days it’s hard work and others it’s a breeze and just part of the day’s flow. I will focus then on more flow in my life right now in all realms, my yoga practice, my career, my love life, my money flow. Breathe in, breathe out, repeat.

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Truth About Publishing

Posted on November 1, 2011 by

There are so many ways to have your work published nowadays. Problem is, if you’re still looking to go the traditional publishing route, it’s still very challenging. More and more authors are self publishing and doing very well. You have to learn first how to do it and then it’s supposedly very easy…
I’m not sure which way I’ll end up going when I have a more finished piece of work. This blog is a form of publishing my work which is at least a step in the right direction. Another way is to enter contests in the hopes you’ll “win” and they end up publishing your work in an anthology. One of my mentors, SARK dared all who are part of her WINS program. I took the dare and submitted my work. Not sure if it will actually win, but I thought I’d share what I submitted. It’s about my maternal grandmother who was one awesome woman!
It’s entitled, “Grandma Cella’s NYC” on the Reader’s Digest Life Story link:
I remember my Grandma Cella being this wonderful, giving, loving, little American-Italian Grandmother. She had the coolest apartment in the world and taught all of us to love this place she called HOME…the Village…THIS New York City where she introduced her country grandchildren to the Big Apple. She loved playing bingo, loved her Pompeii Church Senior Center friends, went on trips to Atlantic City to slots where she’d NEVER win, strolling through Washington Square Park, dinners at Villa Mosconi and Monte’s, shows at Radio City, Rockefeller Center, the Statute of Liberty, the Twin Towers, the crispness of autumn and quiet of snow in the city at Christmastime…all these memories were her gifts to all of us. I especially remember my Mom calling my Grandmother up until 1 am on New Year’s Eve wondering where she was partying with her friends. This is the Grandma I remember…I miss her every day.

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Am I Resistant to Success- Part II – Writing

Posted on October 21, 2011 by

So, another exploration of resisting success led me to see if in fact I’m resistant to my writing being successful. I feel terrified that I’ll write something that will piss someone(s) off that I care about, but I feel like I need to write it anyway and not care. Another part of me isn’t scared to be successful because I enjoy the feeling of accomplishment and recognition. I think that I’ll just have to write whatever I need to write and then deal with the consequences of emotions later. I can’t make everyone happy, that’s the reality. The truth of the being resistant to the success of writing for me is perhaps because I love being validated for things I do (yes, I like to please). I’m still struggling knowing that not all the people I care about will validate me and may in fact be ashamed of my writing (well, at least one of the publications I have in mind). However, I know if I’m to be true to myself, I need to just go with it and write what NEEDS to be written. I mean, come on, I did change my whole life around to follow my dreams! And…it IS one of my dreams to be a published, well-known and respected author, so what am I waiting for?

walk all over my reistance to success!

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Am I Resistant to Success? Part I – Yoga Business

Posted on October 16, 2011 by

I received my yoga teacher training certification this past March. It’s been quite awhile since I even really thought of a business plan. Okay, that’s a lie…I’m totally resistant to creating a business plan for my yoga business because I’m afraid I’ll fail. Yuck.
As a yoga teacher I have options to teach in a studio, have private clients, organize retreats, there are so many possibilities! So why the fear when there are so many options? I feel in part this is because of all my years of teaching and having to commit to just one thing in one place. I’m resistant to committment then in part, a common thread in my life.
All of this introspection has on this particular subject has been brewing and I feel I’ll have to really decide on what I want to do soon. Not because I really need the money (I mean, I do, who doesn’t right now) but because I think the spa I work at currently will ask me to teach some private sessions to guests or possibly help with their new one day retreats. Really amazing business opportunity in a somewhat untraditional teaching environment, it’s what I must have been subconciously asking the universe for.
I’m excited about what teaching opportunities will arise for me and I always have the option of saying yes or no. I keep this in mind to keep my committment resistant self at bay.
So, the truth is that I’m excited to begin something new with my yoga business, somewhat scared too and looking forward to the adventure and evolution of my teacher self merging with my business savvy.

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The Truth of Procrastination…

Posted on October 3, 2011 by

The truth is…I’m a coward. I seem to hide my cowardess in the guise of procrastinating. This is the first blog entry in over a month, why? I’m terrified of writing, for real. I have tons of journal entries but … Continue reading →

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Meaty Truths

Posted on August 10, 2011 by

A couple of months ago I was asked, “What is ‘The Meat’ of what you’re writing about?”
Well, it’s definitely truth.
I’m beginning with writing more about my personal truths, it’s a good place to start.

For years I tried to be someone who I wasn’t but became very good at being.
Breaking free from that is helping me grow, change my life completely and not be fearful of embracing who I was and who I’ve become.

So the meaty truth for me…will I be successful in incorporating who I was with who I want to be? Can a yogini unite the life that was with the life that is and has yet to be?

TBA

 

 

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Exploring Truth Means Exploring Honesty

Posted on August 6, 2011 by

While one explores Truth, an exploration of Honesty must also be present. What does it mean to be 99% honest versus 100% honest? Only 1%, however, that 1% can make a world of difference over time in one’s life and communication with others. I think that Pace from Connection Revolution explains it best, http://connection-revolution.com/stop-telling-little-white-lies-the-difference-between-99-percent-honest-and-100-percent-honest/

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